Evening peep :)
You know that this fat girl (mean myself)...Totally feel not good enough when I'm around with a skinny and hottie gegurl.
yeah,I'm not feeling good and confident with myself.I hate when I start to compare myself with other sweets and adorable girls.yes,I shouldn't and must must ever ever felt like that but I cant stop thinking and HATE MYSELF.
I think word that nice enough to show what type of this stupid and nonsense feeling is "INSECURE"...
The more I'm compare myself with other girls,the feeling of insecure,no confidence will grow bigger in my head.I start to think to take medicine,start dont want to eat,start to do something stupid to my own body...
(oh my goidd I want to cry)
yeahh,maybe some of you think WHAT'S WRONG WITH THIS GIRL,IS SHE CRAZY or WHTSOEVER
yeah,I'm crazy to get slim and be slim and skinny...The feeling and this emotion make me nuts.Everyone around me judge me bcouse of my body...I hate that..Totally...hate this INSECURE feeling..
I dont know how to write about this INSECURE feeling but fyi;I just hate to watch myself in mirror.hate to see that this fat and ugly girl.I dont know why I feelin like that but for GOD sake this feeling make me sick of myself.I totally feel ashame about my own body plus,nowdays fashion also make me b'come more more more angry about my figure :(
Now,I know why in this world there are anorexia,bulimia and SED...Bcoz of demand to be skinny and should be skinny I think...Oh mai God,do help me thru my days without feelin this stupid thinggyy feelin that.make me INSECURE...
YEAH!!!INSECURE SO SUCK,MAKE ME DYING INSIDE AND TRY TO DESTROY MY OWN IDENTITY :(
Bubye and kiss from Geek
